Fox News: Peddlers of Misinformation

  A recent study reported on by the Daily Kos, makes it clear what I've known for quite some time. Watching Fox News makes you stupid. What else did you expect from lying, fascist, propaganda monkeys? These misogynistic, homophobic, racist, sexist, hemorroids on the ass of society are only interested in spreading right wing lies and disinformation. They want their viewers to be ignorant and fearful because it makes them easier to manipulate. These fuckers needs to be culled from the rest of us and killed. 'Nuff said!

Terminal Virginitis

  I'm going to be a virgin my whole fucking life. Not by choice, mind you, but because women find me utterly, wholly and completely repellent. I'm not at the bottom of sexual desirability totem pole, I'm several miles beneath it. I'd have to put in considerable effort if I want to move up to the lofty score of zero. It makes me wish that I could excise all the sexual thoughts, urges and fetishes from my brain. All they do is remind me of things I'll never have or experience like an intimate relationship, kinky sex or even vanilla sex for that matter. Not that I deserve any of that being the worthless piece of shit that I am. I'd be better off as a sexless, lobotomized freak. Odds are I'd be happier or at least so brain dead I'd no longer care. Hell, I'm already part way there because like about half the men my age, I suffer from some degree of erectile dysfunction. My cock just isn't what it used to be. But since I'm never going to have sexual relations with a woman, it hardly fucking matters. It could shrivel up and fall off and my sex life would go from virtually nonexistent to simply nonexistent.

End of the Year Thoughts

  As 2014 comes to an end, I find myself back at the hospital. I've been here since this past Monday. It seems that my creatinine level jumped up to 6.94 when it should be closer to 1.0. This blows chunks. For yet another year, I'm missing out on spending New Year's Eve with my friends. I've also missed more work. Fortunately, I have New Year's Eve and Day off and I should be back at work Friday. That's all for now.
  Mike

How things are going so far

  Things were improving earlier this year. I had finally paid off both my MasterCard and Discover accounts. Finally, I'd have enough money to build up my checking and savings accounts. Then I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. This meant that I was going to be on medication for the rest of my life. A setback, yes, but since I had insurance, some of the cost would be absorbed by my insurance. Then a routine colonoscopy turned up a 1cm. cancerous polyp. That meant surgery. The cost of the presurgery tests and the surgery itself, even with insurance, was expensive. I had to go on medical leave from work, so I didn't have as much money coming in. Even with the $1,000.00 my Mom and Dad gave me to help pay bills, I still had to pay for some things via credit card. The surgery went well, but the cancer had entered my lymph nodes. This meant chemotherapy. 12 cycles of chemotherapy.

  Why is it that when I see a light at the end of the tunnel it's always the headlight of an oncoming train? It seems like no matter what I do, I can't get ahead financially. I clear away most of my credit card debt and now I have health problems. End result, more damn debt. I'm due to return to work some time in December. I'll still be undergoing chemo, but I have no choice. I can't afford to take any more time off. And when those treatments are done, what will happen next to fuck me over? Another health crisis? An accident? What? It would be really nice if after all this is done, I could enjoy a period of financial stability. One where I could pay down my credit card, clear away some bills and build up my bank accounts. I'd like to be able to attend Gen Con this year. 

Ebola News Coverage

  Ebola has been figuring prominently in the news lately. You'd think, by the way it's being covered, that we're on the verge of an Ebola pandemic. I don't see this happening. From what I've read and heard about it, this disease isn't very infectious. Ebola's not like the flu. It can't be spread via sneezing or coughing. You'd pretty much have to get the bodily fluids of an infected person in your mouth or bloodstream in order to become infected yourself. The reason it's so prevalent in Africa is because far too many people are exposed to the bodily fluids of the infected that aren't taking the proper precautions.
  Here in the U.S., we've had two cases that I'm aware of, one in Dallas and one in New York. Both of these individuals have been quarantined and it's extremely unlikely that Ebola will spread beyond them. So why is there all this panic in the news? I expect this sort of thing from the Fascist Fucks at the Fox Propaganda Network. Their whole business relies on fear mongering, lies, homophobia, misogyny and race hate. Those huffers of their own fermented shit aren't interested in the facts. They just want to use anything and everything to push their right wing ideology. They have no morals, ethics or standards of decency. The other news networks, however, should know better. Politicians should know better too. Their overreaction is just as bad. They act like they're medical professionals and go around ordering people quarantined without consulting with actual medical professionals. They also make a bunch of asinine suggestions regarding how to deal with individuals coming into country from Ebola ridden areas. Stupidity like this has resulted in one nurse being confined to an unheated tent with no running water and a box for a toilet for period of time. The politicians need to leave the medical problems to those with the knowledge and training to handle them and go back to doing what they do best, licking the shit out of ass cracks of the rich in order to get that sweet, sweet campaign cash. More information on this can be found here.

You've got to be fucking kidding me

  On tonight's Daily Show, they had a spot where they talk to Rev. Bob Larson about him conducting exorcisms via Skype. Can you believe it? Can you FUCKING believe it!?! It's the 21st century and we still have people in this country that think demons and demonic possession are real. Now I've seen videos of these so called exorcisms and they consist of nothing more than people making funny faces and talking in weird voices. Nothing even remotely supernatural occurs. You'd think if the person in question were really possessed, the possessing demon would make every effort to demonstrate its power in order to intimidate the exorcist yet this never occurs. The people receiving these exorcisms are nothing more than mentally unbalanced people in need of serious therapy. These so called exorcists, by catering to their delusions, are simply acting as enablers. This is bullshit plain and simple. And Rev. Larson asks for donations of $290.00 for each exorcism. Nice scam you've got there, buddy. You delude people into thinking they're possessed and then bilk them out of $290.00 so you can "cure" them. And the law makes no effort to arrest you for being a scam artist.

The Upcoming Chemotherapy Treatment

  At some point in the not too distant future, I will be starting chemotherapy. This is because some cancer cells from the malignant polyp penetrated my intestinal wall and got into a lymph node. Even though this node, along with 19 others, was removed during the colectomy, some cancer cells may have gotten into my bloodstream or lymphatic system. This could lead to the cancer recurring at some point in the future. Chemotherapy is designed to kill fast dividing cells like cancer. Unfortunately, other fast dividing cells, like bone marrow, get killed as well.

  The drug cocktail the oncologist wants to use consists of the following three drugs, 5-Fluorouracil (5-FU), Oxaliplatin and Leucovorin. The first two drugs have a lengthy list of side effects. While I won't necessarily suffer all the listed side effects, the treatment will still wreck havoc on my system. They want me to be part of a clinical study and I've agreed. They want to see if six treatments are as effective as twelve. They also want to see if the drug celocoxib, also known as Celebrex, can prevent the formation of intestinal polyps. I'm hoping to get into one of the six treatment groups for two reasons, it'll cost me less and I'll suffer less side effects. The medical costs are racking up fast and I have yet to receive my first disability payment. While the insurance I have through work pays for most of it, what's left in a few instances has been quite substantial. My biggest worry is that at some point the insurance will stop covering the treatments and I'll be stuck with the entire bill. I'll post more as things progress.