Terminal Virginitis

  I'm going to be a virgin my whole fucking life. Not by choice, mind you, but because women find me utterly, wholly and completely repellent. I'm not at the bottom of sexual desirability totem pole, I'm several miles beneath it. I'd have to put in considerable effort if I want to move up to the lofty score of zero. It makes me wish that I could excise all the sexual thoughts, urges and fetishes from my brain. All they do is remind me of things I'll never have or experience like an intimate relationship, kinky sex or even vanilla sex for that matter. Not that I deserve any of that being the worthless piece of shit that I am. I'd be better off as a sexless, lobotomized freak. Odds are I'd be happier or at least so brain dead I'd no longer care. Hell, I'm already part way there because like about half the men my age, I suffer from some degree of erectile dysfunction. My cock just isn't what it used to be. But since I'm never going to have sexual relations with a woman, it hardly fucking matters. It could shrivel up and fall off and my sex life would go from virtually nonexistent to simply nonexistent.

The Enslaver (A Short Story)

  This is a short story I wrote for a contest set up by Nicole Kendall on DeviantArt. The setting is the Sweet Gwendoline world created by John Willie. Artist Osvaldo Greco has continued in this tradition with his Perils of Gwendoline comics posted on DeviantArt. The above pic of Helena Petrovka was drawn by him as my prize for winning Nicole's contest.


  Helena Petrovka was one of the leading chemists at DeVyoc Pharmaceuticals. She was, however, underappreciated. Other, lesser minds, were getting credit for their inferior work while she toiled on some of the most cutting edge research in the industry. The main reason for her being treated this way was her views regarding human testing of the new drugs created. She had no qualms about testing potentially dangerous drugs on humans before more was known about possible side effects.
  She was on the verge of being fired when she made an accidental discovery. In her research on drugs for treating mental disorders, she created a drug that made women highly suggestible. She promptly tested the drug on Nicole, her lab assistant and found that she could be programmed to become her sweet little rubber slave. Unfortunately, the effects would start to wear off after a few days and so she had to keep Nicole on the drug in order to maintain control.
  She had a major breakthrough about six weeks later while examining some earlier research regarding the treatment of people with severe phobias. The brains of these people had essentially hardwired links between a particular traumatic incident and some element involved in that incident. Whenever the person encountered that element, said link would trigger the fear reaction. Her new drug, Enslavinol-17, formed those same neurochemical links in the brains of her test subject. She just had to find a way to make them permanent.
  Helena proceeded to use Enslavinol-17 on the women at DeVyoc Pharmaceuticals in order to get greater funding and a larger, all female, staff. With the greater resources at her disposal and an enslaved staff, she was able to create a second drug, Permanendiox HCl that made the neurochemical links formed by Enslavinol-17 permanent. She promptly instituted the creation of an indoctrination plan to form an army of drug enslaved women. Poor Nicole became Mistress Helena's permanently gagged and rubber encased sex doll.
  With her new resources, she opened up a bunch of women only spas staffed by her loyal slaves. Women in the news media, government, industry and other positions of power were invited to try out the new spas. During the spa treatment, they were dosed with Enslavinol-17 and given subliminal instructions that were locked away in their minds. Once the subliminal instructions were implanted, Permanendiox HCl made sure they didn't fade away. These women became her secret minions. They were the ones that would work to fulfill her agenda discreetly.
  She then went about creating her rubber encased female slave army. The women would serve as her security force, house staff and personal sex slaves. These women were programmed with combat techniques as well as any other skills needed for the position they were filling. These women were also turned into serious fetishists that enjoyed being fully encased in skintight latex suits, being gagged virtually all the time, intense bondage and an undying loyalty to their Mistress. Helena even created a special language for her slaves that she called Mmmphian that allowed her slaves to communicate with each other even when heavily gagged.
  Mistress Helena's plans might have succeeded but for one thing. Her sudden rise in status had brought her to the attention of U-89 and her organization. U-89 used her network of contacts to uncover the existence of Enslavinol-17 and Permanendiox HCl and her plans for secretly expanding her influence until she had a presence in nearly every power structure. U-89 managed to secure samples of both drugs and had the lab techs create a drug that blocked the effects of Enslavinol-17. After giving this drug to herself and a cadre of elite female spies, Mistress Petrovka's compound in the Caribbean was raided and she was captured. She currently resides in Cell 43 in U-89's underground prison.
                                           The End

Crash Test Dummy Morphsuit

Here's a short video of me wearing my crash test dummy morphsuit.

Me at the Ren Faire

Here's a video of me at the Bristol Renaissance Faire on Saturday Aug. 17th, 2013.

The Kind of Woman I Want

These photos I found on the web depict the kind of woman I want to have a relationship with.

Taboo Zentai Segment

  Here's the Taboo zentai segment from the National Geographics channel.

  Mike

Halloween Costumes

Halloween will soon be here. It's one of my favorite holidays. I enjoy the fantasy of it. I like seeing the costumes people wear. From time to time, I've dressed up for Halloween. I dressed up as King Diamond for a party some years back and last year I was the wrestler Mankind at Glenn's party. When I do dress up, I don't do cute. I can't stand cute costumes unless kids are wearing them. I'd rather wear something scary, cool or unusual. I also like costumes that hide who I am. Something with a really cool mask. Zentai make great Halloween costumes because they make you anonymous. Not all the zentai designs are to my liking though. Patterns that would make me look like an oversized puppy I won't wear. The same goes for zentai sporting animal ears and a tail. And the garment must cover my entire body. Once it's zipped up, there must be no openings. Granted this makes it harder to see and I'd have to unmask to eat anything, but I like being totally hidden. I ordered two more zentais recently. The order was placed mid October but it was delayed due to the Halloween rush. My original order was for a desert camouflage design for one and a cracked earth design for the other. Unfortunately, Zentai Box can no longer get the cracked earth design. I replaced it with a blue and white wavy striped pattern. It had a sort of cold themed supervillain vibe to it. Because of the problems I had with the metallic zentai I ordered a while back, they said they'd give me a discount. I asked them if they'd give me a free black metallic hood instead and they agreed. I also got another discount because the blue and white wavy striped zentai costs a little more than the cracked earth design. And the great thing is they suggested this design as a replacement. I can't wait for the order to arrive. It will be a great birthday present. Mike

The Mask of NHGH!!

Here's my latest YouTube video. Mike

Relationships

  I no longer see myself as ever being involved in a relationship. This is primarily because I don't exist as far as women are concerned. They don't view me as a potential partner so I don't waste the time pursuing them. I don't need that much rejection in my life. I've pretty much come to grips with fact that I'm unappealing to them. I figure every women that has ever laid eyes on me shot me down inside a few seconds.
  This means that I'm going to be spending a lot of time by myself. Nothing new, I've gotten used to being by myself. I've gone to movies alone, the Ren Faire alone. I've even attended Gen Con alone. This is my life, welcome to it.
  Being alone also means no sex life. Again nothing new. Want to hear a bit of stunning news? Ever hear of the 40 Year Old Virgin? Add almost 11 years and you've got me, the guy no woman wants to touch. Yay. This is result of a lifetime of being told by people that I was a nobody. The number of friends I had as a teenager could be counted on one hand even if two fingers were cut off. It's taken me a long time to acquire what little social life I have. My lack of extensive interaction with women has left me socially and emotionally stunted when it comes to them. Throw in some hard wired fetishes acquired over the years and my chances of having a meaningful relationship with a woman asymptotically approaches nonexistence. I debated releasing this bit of news because of who might end up reading it but then I thought "Who fucking cares?". It's unlikely that anyone I know will ever read this blog and if they did, so what? I really doubt that any of this will be all that new to them.
  Hell there are times I'm amazed that I have any friends at all. I'm amazed anyone bothers to read the poetry I've posted here and on Deviant Art. I actually have two watchers on Deviant Art. Two. Will wonders never cease? And three YouTube subscribers. People follow me on Twitter. How is it that someone so insignificant in the grand scheme of things has people reading his insane little rants? Anyone reading this who cares to weigh in on this matter can feel free to drop me a line via the comments portion of this blog.
  That's all for now. This is the Right Reverend Mike, Head Honcho and sole member of the Fellowship of The Eternal Dobbs Pipe Clench, signing off.

Second YouTube video

Here's my second YouTube video. Mike

My First YouTube Video

A short while back I uploaded my first YouTube. Here it is . Mike

The first suit

The standard black zentai arrived yesterday. It fit BEAUTIFULLY!! Those custom measurements I sent to Zentai Box worked nicely. The only minor problem I had was when it came time to zip up the suit. I'm not especially flexible and it was hard to reach the lower zipper pull when it got in between my shoulder blades. I ended up running a short length of cord through the zipper pull to form a loop. Then I used my plastic crook hook to catch the loop so I could pull it up. The top zipper pull was less of a problem. I love the way the suit feels against my skin. The suit gently constricts itself around my entire body. All tactile and visual sensations are blunted by the suit. I wore a second hood under the zentai hood. It's made of black spandex with mesh covered eye holes. That way if I need to see better, I can pull down the zentai hood and still remain masked. What's the fun in wearing zentai if you're not anonymous? I loved the way it felt so much that I decided to sleep in it last night. I can't wait for the other two suits to arrive. The metallic black suit is already in the mail. It hasn't left China yet though. The camouflage suit is still being made. I'm considering wearing the camouflage zentai to the Bristol Renaissance Faire if I get a chance to go this year. While drinking wouldn't be much of a problem, eating poses some difficulties. I don't want to get food stains on my suit. Of course I could fill up before I go thus negating the need to eat there. I'll work things out when the time comes.

Zentai suits

As of this posting, I have three zentai suits on order; a standard black one, a metallic black one and a camouflage one. The first one should be arriving in the next day or two. This waiting is driving me nuts. I really want to see what it's like to wear one, to be totally enveloped inside it. Anonymous. I eventually would like to get more suits in different styles but this is a nice start. None of them will have eye or mouth openings as that would ruin the anonymity. I want to be featureless, blank. A hood with eye openings will be bought that I can wear under the zentai suit's hood for those instances where I need to see better. Come to think of it, I already have a spandex hood that might work. It has mesh screens over the eyes. I hope the measurements I gave them work. I want my zentai to fit nice and snug against my body like a second skin. I don't know if I'll be wearing them in public anytime soon. My fetishes have always been private matters that I've been reluctant to tell others about until recently. No one at work knows about this blog, my YouTube account or my Deviant Art account. The only people that know anything about them are people I've met through them. I prefer it that way. I confess though, that it might be interesting to go to the Renaissance Faire wearing the camouflage zentai. I wonder if it would draw as much attention as that time I wore the Viking helmet there. A YouTube friend suggested that I post some videos of me wearing my zentai to my YouTube account. Sounds like a cool idea. I won't show my face though. It's that whole anonymity thing. I'll also post some pics on the blog and maybe on Deviant Art. That's all for now. Mike

If Only for a Little While

If Only for a Little While

The sweet embrace of hempen bonds

Hug your body tight.

One would upon beholding you

Wonder about your plight.

Sealed lips so silken soft

Utter such wondrous sounds.

A sigh, a moan, a whimper.

You’re so pleasing when you’re bound.

Gentle caresses bathe your form.

Light kisses on your cheek.

I am your eternal lover.

Your pleasure’s all I seek.

Beautiful hetaera

The stars, upon you, smile.

I wish only to possess you.

If only for a little while.

Love Bondage

Love Bondage

Hempen webbing interlacing

The female form it is encasing.

Binding ankles, thighs and wrists

Around her body bends and twists.

Lying there in roped restraint

The woman offers ne’er a complaint.

And now the woman, still compliant

Let’s her mouth be rendered silent

By the gag that’s strapped in place

Highlighting the beauty of her face.

Your form, in bondage, now is rendered.

My love, to you, I have surrendered.

Idiosyncrasies of a Sexual Nature

Is it wrong to objectify someone? For the longest time, I've had a fetish for bondage and latex. I've always found the image of a beautiful woman bound and gagged to be VERY arousing. Sheathing her in skintight latex only added to my enjoyment. She went from being a woman to being a sex toy. A soft rubber plaything designed solely for my sexual gratification. She ceased to be a person. Clearly such feelings meant that all wasn't right in my head. I was always a rather shy person, especially around women I was attracted to. I had a hard time approaching them let alone talking to them. So in my fantasies, I turned them into objects thus removing the fear of rejection. Over the course of time, I discovered that my bondage fetish wasn't some kind of aberration. There were other people out there that enjoy being objectified at times and others that enjoy objectifying people in sexual situations. One of my greatest desires is to find a woman that wants to be my object of lust and worship. Someone I can envelop in latex, bind, gag and lavish my affection upon. The problem is my knowledge of BDSM is entirely theoretical. I've never had any practical experience. Most women interested in BDSM are looking for an experienced partner. How am I going to get that experience? This mental itch has been unscratched for far too long. The latest fetish to enter the picture is zentai. Zentai is a tight, full body covering garment usually made of Lycra. A standard suit covers you from head to toe. No part of you is visible. You become effectively anonymous. Women wearing zentai look like some sort of cloth doll or, in the case of metallic zentai, android. It's another form of objectification. I've two zentai suits on order, one standard black and one metallic black. I can't wait to try them on. I admit there are times when I don't want to be me or, for that matter, someone else. I simply want to be nobody, anonymous. Being completely enclosed in the zentai suit would separate me from the rest of the world. My universe would shrink to the boundary of the suit and it would limit my ability to perceive the world beyond said boundary. To some extent, I'd become a universe unto myself. Interesting thought. So here I am, frustrated and unable to satisfy my sexual predilections. Hopefully, I'll get my act together and find my object of lust and worship. Only time will tell. Mike